My life was so boring, I Googled, "cheap hobbies." And that's how this blog was born.

Volleyball was my whole life. I played in multiple leagues per week. Multiple tournaments per month. I often traveled for said tournaments.

The funniest thing is, I am NOT EVEN GOOD. I mean, I am average. Mediocre. My biggest highlight is probably finishing first place in a B level women's tournament and winning a free volleyball.

But I am also five-foot-nothing. God did not DESIGN me to excel at this sport, but I just love(d) it so, so much.

Tournaments would often make me cry. I normally felt anxious around so many people, and I was usually (always) disappointed in my performance. I didn't realize it at the time, but it really took a toll on my self-esteem.

It wasn't until I intentionally removed myself from the "volleyball world" due to "life circumstances" that I realized ... how pitiful my obsession with the sport was.

Without volleyball, I had no hobbies. No real interests that occupied a ton of time. No identity. I spent countless hours rearranging furniture in my house because I had nothing else to do.

I remember Googling "cheap or free hobbies." Nothing appealed to me. Blogging was always in the back of my mind, because I LOVE to write, but something always held me back.

"Lauren, you literally just Googled 'hobbies' because your life is so miserably boring. What could you POSSIBLY write about on a consistent basis?"

Then, the light bulb went off. I don't HAVE to write on a consistent basis. If I only blog once every two months, who the fuck cares? It's not like I am getting paid to produce this content. Nobody is making me hit some quota of X amount of blogs per week. If I want to blog because I think I have a funny story, or I want to get something off my chest, or document a moment from my life, and not a single person cares to read it, SO WHAT?

So, I just built the website and began writing. Some days, I am inspired to write. Other days, I'm not. But man, the days where the inspiration kicks in, those days are magical. Writing has been so therapeutic for me, and I genuinely appreciate those of you who have reached out to me to say that a blog made you laugh or feel less alone. It helps me combat the fear I have of people thinking I am "sharing too much" or "being too vulnerable" or "not shutting up about mental health" or "seeking attention."

It's truly been an honor to share my unfiltered stream of thoughts from my very messy brain with all 26ish of my subscribers. ;) Thanks for tagging along!