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Why is my blog called "Fix me in 45?"
Since I created my blog, I have had several people reach out to me to thank me for my “honesty.” But in hindsight, I haven’t been...

Lauren
Feb 22, 20243 min read


A defective ship.
For years, and perhaps my entire life, I have been a ship – a defective ship sailing across a large body of water. I selected the word...

Lauren
Jan 25, 20243 min read


Dependency is NOT a bad word.
During my divorce, I began dating way too soon. If you asked my best friend, my therapist, my parents, and my colleagues if I should have...

Lauren
Nov 17, 20234 min read


Pro-tip: When experiencing grief, just listen to happier music! (sarcasm)
When I was going through the trenches of divorce — which included moving out of my home, finding new living arrangements, taking extended...

Lauren
Jul 31, 20232 min read


My boyfriend told me I have selfish anxiety. What a relief.
I accomplished something today that I feel I wouldn’t have been able to accomplish a year ago … at least not without losing significant...

Lauren
May 23, 20236 min read


The one where I drafted a vulnerable, 900-word personal narrative but can't think of a title.
Part I. As we approach April (which has nothing to do with the timeline of my divorce), I am overflowing with feelings of gratitude –...

Lauren
Mar 29, 20234 min read


I forgot my last name during a media segment.
I was afraid to start a blog because I have tried blogging before. I build the website. I write one blog. I never blog again. My track...

Lauren
Mar 7, 20234 min read


I am whole person.
“I am a whole person.” My last annual review at work did not go well. I was used to nothing but STELLAR, GLOWING reviews, and I crumbled....

Lauren
Jan 19, 20232 min read


Just keep hitting singles.
When I was at my all-time low, my therapist implemented “time chunking” – which, quite literally saved me. I was incapable of...

Lauren
Dec 23, 20222 min read


Dear Matt,
“You know how much I hate that everybody just expects me to bounce back.” Dear Matt, It’s my time to heal now. And it took time—serious...

Lauren
Nov 16, 20221 min read


One year ago, my whole world crumbled. IT HAS BEEN A BLAST!
One year ago today (November 15, I am publishing a day early), my whole life was swept from under me, and quite frankly, I lost my entire...

Lauren
Nov 14, 20223 min read


Grace.
Grace. It is something I have worked on in therapy for months and months and months, yet I am not grasping it. Grace with myself, that...

Lauren
Oct 12, 20221 min read


100 things I love about myself.
My therapist recently gave me a homework assignment. I was instructed to list 100 things I love about myself. “100?!” I exclaimed. “I...

Lauren
Oct 3, 20225 min read


Do I need validation, advice, a pity party, or a good time? Why not all.
Relapse: A deterioration in someone's state of health after a temporary improvement. It felt too click-baity to use the term "relapse"...

Lauren
Sep 27, 20224 min read


Happy 31st birthday to me.
Do you have an "all-time-low?" When I think of mine, it's a two month stretch that started on my 30th birthday. Yeah, two months. Without...

Lauren
Sep 6, 20222 min read


Depression demanded, "Be intensely sad." I replied, "Right now? But I am really happy."
A lot of the time, my depression co-exists with my sadness. And sure, that sucks. But it at least feels natural. "I am sad and...

Lauren
Aug 14, 20222 min read


How three words changed my life.
I was catching every red light on my way to therapy. EVERY ONE. I rushed in, unsettled, exclaiming, "I'm late!" She said, "Lauren, you...

Lauren
Aug 7, 20221 min read


How I met my goal weight eating only Easy Mac. (click bait title).
“You look GREAT. So tiny!” I replied, “Because I am not eating.” The words just came out of my fucking mouth. Like vomit. Like my food. I...

Lauren
Aug 3, 20221 min read
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