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Why is my blog called "Fix me in 45?"
Since I created my blog, I have had several people reach out to me to thank me for my “honesty.” But in hindsight, I haven’t been...

Lauren
Feb 22, 20243 min read
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A defective ship.
For years, and perhaps my entire life, I have been a ship – a defective ship sailing across a large body of water. I selected the word...

Lauren
Jan 25, 20243 min read
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Dependency is NOT a bad word.
During my divorce, I began dating way too soon. If you asked my best friend, my therapist, my parents, and my colleagues if I should have...

Lauren
Nov 17, 20234 min read
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Pro-tip: When experiencing grief, just listen to happier music! (sarcasm)
When I was going through the trenches of divorce — which included moving out of my home, finding new living arrangements, taking extended...

Lauren
Jul 31, 20232 min read
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My boyfriend told me I have selfish anxiety. What a relief.
I accomplished something today that I feel I wouldn’t have been able to accomplish a year ago … at least not without losing significant...

Lauren
May 23, 20236 min read
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The one where I drafted a vulnerable, 900-word personal narrative but can't think of a title.
Part I. As we approach April (which has nothing to do with the timeline of my divorce), I am overflowing with feelings of gratitude –...

Lauren
Mar 29, 20234 min read
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I forgot my last name during a media segment.
I was afraid to start a blog because I have tried blogging before. I build the website. I write one blog. I never blog again. My track...

Lauren
Mar 7, 20234 min read
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I am whole person.
“I am a whole person.” My last annual review at work did not go well. I was used to nothing but STELLAR, GLOWING reviews, and I crumbled....

Lauren
Jan 19, 20232 min read
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Just keep hitting singles.
When I was at my all-time low, my therapist implemented “time chunking” – which, quite literally saved me. I was incapable of...

Lauren
Dec 23, 20222 min read
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Dear Matt,
“You know how much I hate that everybody just expects me to bounce back.” Dear Matt, It’s my time to heal now. And it took time—serious...

Lauren
Nov 16, 20221 min read
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One year ago, my whole world crumbled. IT HAS BEEN A BLAST!
One year ago today (November 15, I am publishing a day early), my whole life was swept from under me, and quite frankly, I lost my entire...

Lauren
Nov 14, 20223 min read
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Grace.
Grace. It is something I have worked on in therapy for months and months and months, yet I am not grasping it. Grace with myself, that...

Lauren
Oct 12, 20221 min read
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100 things I love about myself.
My therapist recently gave me a homework assignment. I was instructed to list 100 things I love about myself. “100?!” I exclaimed. “I...

Lauren
Oct 3, 20225 min read
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Do I need validation, advice, a pity party, or a good time? Why not all.
Relapse: A deterioration in someone's state of health after a temporary improvement. It felt too click-baity to use the term "relapse"...

Lauren
Sep 27, 20224 min read
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Happy 31st birthday to me.
Do you have an "all-time-low?" When I think of mine, it's a two month stretch that started on my 30th birthday. Yeah, two months. Without...

Lauren
Sep 6, 20222 min read
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Depression demanded, "Be intensely sad." I replied, "Right now? But I am really happy."
A lot of the time, my depression co-exists with my sadness. And sure, that sucks. But it at least feels natural. "I am sad and...

Lauren
Aug 14, 20222 min read
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How three words changed my life.
I was catching every red light on my way to therapy. EVERY ONE. I rushed in, unsettled, exclaiming, "I'm late!" She said, "Lauren, you...

Lauren
Aug 7, 20221 min read
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How I met my goal weight eating only Easy Mac. (click bait title).
“You look GREAT. So tiny!” I replied, “Because I am not eating.” The words just came out of my fucking mouth. Like vomit. Like my food. I...

Lauren
Aug 3, 20221 min read
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